Thursday, December 02, 2010
For the longest time...
Upon started working...I realise that life is never based on free will...
instead it is based on the society and others view...
and if you try to live the life base on your own free will...
you must really be quite brave...
cause most of the time...
you will be left alone...
you will be shunned...
you will be shot, stabbed, hit...
until you are full of blood and lying down flat...
the scariest thing is...
you will start to change....
to those people that you once look down on...
to the ones that wear mask as they struggle to live...
to the ones that live... but unsure of what they really want...
I never want to wear the mask...
but it is being force onto me...
can i do without the mask?
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 8:55 PM
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
feeling of the day....
I am feeling very very blue today...and I am totally clueless about this feeling...
have i lost my mind?
or have I lost the life I used to have?
am I still... me?
what do i actually want?
Looking at the crowd as I was crossing the junction....
I found myself look really much alike the others...
walking around in the city...
but without an aim or a goal in mind....
what do i want out of my life?
i feel lost...
i feel disorientated..
i feel suffocated...
i feel....
numb...
life.....
what is life?
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 11:38 PM
Friday, August 13, 2010
hmmm....
Why would one human attack another human?for food?
for shelter overhead?
for partner?
for money?
for what?
I never get it.
If they ever did something to you, is still justifiable.
Why attack some poor strangers?
Why?
Does their pure existence irks you so much?
Then why are you alive?
someone, somewhere out there could be doing the same thing to you.
why can't you put yourself in their shoes,
walk a mile in their skin,
and think.
is it so hard to live a life not attacking others?
Just, for a moment, i wondered, "what is going through your mind?"
I am so disappointed with humans.
maybe they are right.
human are like virus in the world.
ugly virus.
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 1:03 PM
i guess....
if something are not meant to be said, don't ask.if you are looking for a negative answer, please just stick your mind in there.
if I said something that is really wrong, I am sorry.
but
if you choose to act like that, is all fine with me.
will feel a bit sad.
will feel a bit more disappointed.
will feel a bit angry.
will feel a bit more regretful.
will feel a bit guilty.
will feel that is such a pity.
but
is all well.
but i rather let it go.
is no longer important.
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 8:59 AM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
liking and dependants....
有一位朋友问道：两个人喜欢，是互相依赖，还是有一方的依赖比较严重？女生对男生的依赖是什么？而男生对女生的依赖又是什么？依赖是好是坏？有人会有答案吗？
我想，每个人在某种程度上，一定会有需要依赖别人的地方。依赖，不过是一种生存方式。
但，当一方的依赖变得过于沉重时， 一切就会失去平衡。太过依赖对方，不仅仅让对方觉得难以喘息，也会对自身造成一定的伤害。 当对方离开时，依赖的一方还能站得住脚吗？
爱情，或许就犹如两张依靠者的纸牌一般， 当一方过于依赖对方时， 他们就会一起倒下。互相依赖，才能站个天长地久吧。。。
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 5:28 PM
Sunday, April 18, 2010
10 years down the road...
where will we be my friend...
ten years from now...
will we still call each other????
will we still meet for tea???
will we still laugh for no reason??
will we still go for meal?
do we still do our handshake?
do we still order the same drinks??
do we still dream of the future???
do we still talk the same way????
will you remember me??
will you remember the time we spent??
will I think of meeting??
will I remember you??
friends, where are you today?
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 2:53 AM
Monday, February 08, 2010
a typical conversation...
just had a typical conversation with this friend of mine....
well....
i just have no idea what sort of friend do i consider this is....
typical conversation #1: bumped into each other in school.
Me: *WAVE and smile
Friend: *WAVE and smile
Both: *walk passed each other
typical conversation #2: saw each other in lectures
Me (upon 1st eye contact): *WAVE and smile
Friend: *WAVE and smile
Both: * face front and went back to lecture
Not so typical conversation #1:
*Lift Door opens
Me: *WAVE and smile
Friend: *WAVE and smile
Friend: *pointed upward/downward to ask if the lift is going up or down
Me:* point upward/downward to show if lift going up or down
Friend: either 1.*enter lift and smile or 2.*Wave to show that "I am going the other direction"
case 1:
Both: *wait till door open and leave
case 2:
Both: *WAVE as the door closed.
Friends.... how i love them...
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 6:08 PM
Sunday, November 22, 2009
ghost of the past...
the past flow back into my mind as the song flow into my ear...
maybe i didn't forget...
i just wasn't reminded of it...
but whenever i heard it...
it came haunting me again...
maybe i just can't forget...
so i am letting the song flow back into my ear...
as the memory flow back into my brain...
as the blood flow out from the wounds again...
and stare at the ceiling...
as i bleed myself dry tonight...
[ ` reaping painful hearts* ]
at 1:16 AM
